Sunday, April 16, 2017

曾錚的圖片故事(10)Jennifer’s Photo Stories (10)



Praising the Murderer 「無知的」碩士及學者


This clearly is a very “awkward” photo for our dance team in Hanwang Middle School in Mianzhu County, Sichuan Province in China. The photographer was not fast enough to snap a photo while we were dancing; so he asked us to hold still afterwards so that he could "make up" for what he missed. However, he was still way too slow. Some of us became impatient and gave up holding the pose. Only three still managed to stay in the posture, with two showing miserable expressions including me at the back row. 
這張很「失敗」的照片是我上初中時照的。我們跳舞時攝影師動作太慢,來不及抓拍,跳完後就讓我們擺好姿式等著。可他還是太不專業了,半天了也還沒拍,所以有人不耐煩地站直了腰,不給他擺姿式了;剩下三個還在勉力支持的,兩個已是痛苦滿面,其中一個是後面那排的我。
And what was the dance all about? It was about singing the praises of the Chinese Communist Party(CCP) for “liberating the slaves in Tibet”. We were obviously dressed and acted as grateful Tibetans to express our gratitude towards the CCP.
那這是個什麼舞蹈呢?顯而易見,我們跳的是西藏舞,歌頌並感謝共產黨讓「西藏農奴」翻了身。
For more than 30 years, all those songs that glorify the CCP engraved very deeply in my mind; as I had heard them too many times. Like the song accompanied our dance, we had to listen to it countless times while practicing the dance.
在多達三十多年裏,我們跳舞時用的那支歌頌共產黨「解放」西藏的伴歌,以及其他所有宣傳共產黨「偉、光、正」的歌,都深深的印在我腦海裏,不定什麼時候就自己跑出來了。尤其跳舞時的伴歌,因爲反覆聽、反覆練,攆都攆不走。
It was not until 2001, when I was already 35 years old, did I ever realize that my knowledge about Tibet was very, very wrong. It was at a human rights forum in Melbourne on the Human Rights Day; and I was invited there to talk about the persecution I suffered in the Chinese labor camp for practicing Falun Gong. At that stage I had just escaped from China several months ago.
直到2001年,已35歲「高齡」的我才第一次意識到,我關於西藏的認知是多麼的錯誤——而且是通過一個最尷尬的方式。
那是在當年人權日澳大利亞墨爾本的一次研討會上,我應邀去發表演講,講述自己因修煉法輪功在中共勞教所裏所遭受的非人折磨。
At the Q & A session, a lady asked me, “What do you know about the persecution in Tibet? Do they suffer similar persecution?”
I quickly searched within my mind for what I knew about Tibet; and realized in panic that apart from “the CCP had liberated Tibetan salves and brought them eternal happiness”, I knew nothing at all about what happened in Tibet.
As a labor camp survivor who had nearly been tortured to death, and who had witnessed how mad and overwhelming CCP’s lies and propaganda campaign could be, I of course already knew that what the CCP had told us about Tibet could be all wrong. But what was the right information?
到了演講後的提問環節,一名女士問我:「據您所知,西藏的情況怎樣?西藏人是否也遭受同樣的迫害?」
我迅速地在腦海中搜索自己關於西藏的知識,發現除了那首歌及中共歷史教科書中關於共產黨「解放」了西藏農奴的宣傳之外,竟然是一無所有。那時我才剛剛逃離中國幾個月,整天忙於寫書,也無暇上網看東西,所以除了在國內已經裝入腦袋的信息之外,其他什麼也沒有。
在剛剛經歷了勞教所的九死一生,見證了中共對法輪功鋪天蓋地的造謠攻勢之後,我那時當然已經能猜到中共告訴我的關於西藏的一切,可能都是錯的。可是對的是什麼?不知道。
I had to admit that that was one of the most embarrassing moments in my entire life. As a Master of Science who graduated from a top university, Peking University, in China, I had thought that I was quite well educated, very smart, and knew a lot. But at that embarrassing moment when so many people were eagerly gazing at me and waiting for an answer, I had to admit that I was too ignorant to offer any.
那一刻真是尷尬啊。臺下那麼多雙眼睛熱切的望著我,等著我的回答,而我卻不得不滿面通紅地承認:我在此問題上一無所知。對於從北大研究生畢業的、自認爲很聰明、受教育程度很高的我來說,那真是被深深刺痛的一刻。
回去後我立刻狂上網找西藏的資料看,這才第一次了解到,天哪,中共在西藏殺了那麼多人!
The other day I saw a post of Professor Ming Xia from CUNY-College of Staten Island, sharing similar “ignorance” and “embarrassment” of knowing nothing about Iwo Jima and its significance as someone who had studied International Politics for eight years and then taught it for three years in China.
So, how devastating is the damage that the CCP has done to China and Chinese people? How hard do we need to work in order to get rid of it? I would say that we have a long way to go!
前兩天在網上看到紐約城市大學斯泰登學院(CUNY—College of Staten Island)夏明教授的一個帖子,說他作爲已在中國接受國際政治系八年訓練並授課三年的學者,來到美國後才發現自己並不了解美國在二戰,尤其是太平洋戰爭中的犧牲和貢獻,以及硫磺島之戰的重要性,當時也是無比尷尬。
由此可見,中國對中國及中國人民的傷害到底有多深?從字典到教科書,從小學生的舞蹈到央視的春晚,一切的一切它都掌控著,按它的要求全套瞎編或造假,到後來,連人們的思維方式都跑不出它設計的路線了。只要它一按開關,你腦子裏出來的保證是它想要的東西。
所以,就算中共明天就倒臺,要清除它的流毒,還有很長的路要走吶。
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